I want to start off by saying that mental health is not something to be taken lightly if you know someone that’s suicidal or is a harm to others do them and yourself a favor by admitting them into a hospital.Sometimes it’s better for them to be away for a few weeks or maybe even a year than for them to be gone indefinitely and that’s a pain I can’t speak on but I can only imagine how it feels.Now to get to today’s story,how many times,if any,have you been admitted into a psych ward?I think I’ve been to the psych hospital at least 10 times now with my most recent visit being the worst in terms of time and damage done.I couldn’t control myself and I let myself reach a really low point in life but thank God I was able to make it out of the hospital again.I remember vaguely the day I went to the hospital that I wasn’t feeling to good mentally,I was experiencing racing thoughts and doomsday scenarios plagued my mind to sum up what I was going through I knew it was time to go to the mental hospital again.While I was in there I also had racing thoughts and delusional thought patterns and I was told by one of the nurses to take a medication but I refused and spit it into the toilet in my designated sleeping room,flushing it away.What would you have done in my situation?I felt really paranoid and out of touch with reality I continued with my outburst and they locked me in a panic room where I lashed out and punched a wall.My hand began to swell to a big bubble to describe it my hand looked like a glove filled with water and purple.I was taken to a hospital where they took x rays and determined that I had fractured my 5th metacarpal or in other terms I had a boxers fracture.Now that I’m home it’s hard to exercise and do some daily tasks but hey these are consequences for my actions.I guess I just wanted to share my story this last hospital visit,but above all with this post bring awareness to mental health and remember that things will eventually get better.The only thing you have to do is keep living and staying positive as much as you can no matter how much distress you feel.Writing in a journal is a very good way of staying proactive,exercise even if you start off with wall pushups release dopamine the feel good chemical and other chemicals in your brain.Believe in yourself and the rest will fall into place,nothing can happen to you that you can’t endure because you are strong,once again you have to keep a positive attitude.Thank you all for reading and giving me an outlet to my problems as well I hope you’re all having a wonderful day.